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• Failing for the first time - 2026-05-19

  Writing exposing myself to safe failures

• My favorite movies (Favorites: 1) - 2026-05-17

  Writing about my favorite movies!

• Mirrored: A transition timeline (Trans: 5) - 2026-05-15

  A video and talking about it

• Music for headmates: 1 - 2026-05-14

  Talking about some headmates and their favorite songs/playlists

• How to do less (someone please tell me) - 2026-05-13

  How does one do anything less than 100% all the time always

• My thoughts on regrets - 2026-05-12

  Writing about regrets and feeling like you did your best

• Looking for a home, making a home, yearning for a home - 2026-05-11

  Writing about our desire to make a home for ourselves

• Bravery (Project Hail Mary: 2) - 2026-05-11

  Writing about how Project Hail Mary makes us feel brave

• Forgiveness - 2026-05-10

  Pondering forgiving someone who's wronged us in the past

• I will be dependent on meds and support for the rest of my life - 2026-05-04

  Writing about coming to terms with how I'll be dependent for the rest of my life

• Death by a thousand cuts: My current experience of OCD - 2026-05-04

  Writing about how I currently experience my OCD

• If I die of depression, read this post - 2026-05-03

  Writing about how I want my death to be perceived

• Hope and the determination to save yourself (and the world) (Project Hail Mary: 1) - 2026-05-02

  Writing about how watching Project Hail Mary gives us hope and will to keep going

• Sayuri: Thoughts on my favorite songs - 2026-05-01

  Writing about one of my favorite artists: Sayuri

• Repetition legitimizes - 2026-04-30

  Writing about how repetition legitimizes

• On writing and why I write - 2026-04-29

  A Virginia Woolf quote that we think about a lot.

• Fire: Our experience of Bipolar hypomania - 2026-04-28

  Writing about our experience of Bipolar Disorder, type 2

• No heroes, no saviors - 2026-04-28

  Writing about what it feels like to save myself

• Misgendering, ignorance, and disrespect (Trans: 4) - 2026-04-27

  Writing about what it feels like to be misgendered

• Unsafe, perpetually (Trans: 3 | Trauma: 1) - 2026-04-26

  My experience of trauma and how I carry it in my body

• Trauma cuddles (Trans: 2) - 2026-04-25

  Trans experiences of trauma and how we heal

• I have always been trans (Trans: 1) - 2026-04-24

  Trans experiences and childhood

• Meditation, mindfulness, and the Brain Zoo - 2026-04-23

  Writing about my first introduction to meditation/mindfulness, and my current interpretation

• Plurality and therapy - 2026-04-23

  Trying to figure out how to mash IFS and plurality in a way that makes sense

• A description of a plural person's headspace - 2026-04-23

  Writing about my system's headspace

• 'I'm going to feel worse if I do that, so I won't'. An introduction to Acceptance and Commitment Therapy - 2026-04-23

  Writing about something a peer said and ACT

• Don't hesitate - Joy is not meant to be a crumb - 2026-04-22

  A poem about embracing joy

• Compared: To others, by others, by myself - 2026-04-22

  Writing about my experience of comparison, by others, from others, and to myself

• Drowning in shame - 2026-04-21

  Writing about my experience of shame, obsession, and self-hate

• Alien blood - 2026-04-20

  Writing about bleeding alien blood, a comic by flyingfrappe

• Anxious love - 2026-04-20

  Writing about my experience of anxious attachment

• The Cave, finding strength in pain - 2026-04-20

  Writing about a song and deriving my strength from my pain

• Fate sends a Dragon during a meeting - 2026-04-19

  An oracle deck draw on 4/19, depression, and Step 1

• Weird addictions (Depression: 1) - 2026-04-18

  Writing about my experience of depression, and how I feel like it's an addiction problem

• Mysterious Fates - 2026-04-17

  Writing about our higher power, luck, and Fate

• 'All your thoughts become hostile' - Our experience of OCD - 2026-04-16

  Writing about our experience of OCD

• Our experience at Autumn Hills Behavioral Health (Victory Bay Residential) - 2026-04-15

  Writing about our experience spending 30 days at Autumn Hills Behavioral Health (Victory Bay Residential)

• Our experience in a mental health residential care facility - 2026-04-14

  Writing about our experience being in a mental health residential program

• Plurality for some others - 2026-04-04

  Writing about our experience of plurality (again, from different perspectives)

• Poems from headmates - 2026-04-03

  Poems written by different headmates

• Plurality for me (Lily) - 2026-04-02

  Writing about our experience of plurality

All my previous posts:

• Failing for the first time - 2026-05-19

  Writing exposing myself to safe failures

• My favorite movies (Favorites: 1) - 2026-05-17

  Writing about my favorite movies!

• Mirrored: A transition timeline (Trans: 5) - 2026-05-15

  A video and talking about it

• Music for headmates: 1 - 2026-05-14

  Talking about some headmates and their favorite songs/playlists

• How to do less (someone please tell me) - 2026-05-13

  How does one do anything less than 100% all the time always

• My thoughts on regrets - 2026-05-12

  Writing about regrets and feeling like you did your best

• Looking for a home, making a home, yearning for a home - 2026-05-11

  Writing about our desire to make a home for ourselves

• Bravery (Project Hail Mary: 2) - 2026-05-11

  Writing about how Project Hail Mary makes us feel brave

• Forgiveness - 2026-05-10

  Pondering forgiving someone who's wronged us in the past

• I will be dependent on meds and support for the rest of my life - 2026-05-04

  Writing about coming to terms with how I'll be dependent for the rest of my life

• Death by a thousand cuts: My current experience of OCD - 2026-05-04

  Writing about how I currently experience my OCD

• If I die of depression, read this post - 2026-05-03

  Writing about how I want my death to be perceived

• Hope and the determination to save yourself (and the world) (Project Hail Mary: 1) - 2026-05-02

  Writing about how watching Project Hail Mary gives us hope and will to keep going

• Sayuri: Thoughts on my favorite songs - 2026-05-01

  Writing about one of my favorite artists: Sayuri

• Repetition legitimizes - 2026-04-30

  Writing about how repetition legitimizes

• On writing and why I write - 2026-04-29

  A Virginia Woolf quote that we think about a lot.

• Fire: Our experience of Bipolar hypomania - 2026-04-28

  Writing about our experience of Bipolar Disorder, type 2

• No heroes, no saviors - 2026-04-28

  Writing about what it feels like to save myself

• Misgendering, ignorance, and disrespect (Trans: 4) - 2026-04-27

  Writing about what it feels like to be misgendered

• Unsafe, perpetually (Trans: 3 | Trauma: 1) - 2026-04-26

  My experience of trauma and how I carry it in my body

• Trauma cuddles (Trans: 2) - 2026-04-25

  Trans experiences of trauma and how we heal

• I have always been trans (Trans: 1) - 2026-04-24

  Trans experiences and childhood

• Meditation, mindfulness, and the Brain Zoo - 2026-04-23

  Writing about my first introduction to meditation/mindfulness, and my current interpretation

• Plurality and therapy - 2026-04-23

  Trying to figure out how to mash IFS and plurality in a way that makes sense

• A description of a plural person's headspace - 2026-04-23

  Writing about my system's headspace

• 'I'm going to feel worse if I do that, so I won't'. An introduction to Acceptance and Commitment Therapy - 2026-04-23

  Writing about something a peer said and ACT

• Don't hesitate - Joy is not meant to be a crumb - 2026-04-22

  A poem about embracing joy

• Compared: To others, by others, by myself - 2026-04-22

  Writing about my experience of comparison, by others, from others, and to myself

• Drowning in shame - 2026-04-21

  Writing about my experience of shame, obsession, and self-hate

• Alien blood - 2026-04-20

  Writing about bleeding alien blood, a comic by flyingfrappe

• Anxious love - 2026-04-20

  Writing about my experience of anxious attachment

• The Cave, finding strength in pain - 2026-04-20

  Writing about a song and deriving my strength from my pain

• Fate sends a Dragon during a meeting - 2026-04-19

  An oracle deck draw on 4/19, depression, and Step 1

• Weird addictions (Depression: 1) - 2026-04-18

  Writing about my experience of depression, and how I feel like it's an addiction problem

• Mysterious Fates - 2026-04-17

  Writing about our higher power, luck, and Fate

• 'All your thoughts become hostile' - Our experience of OCD - 2026-04-16

  Writing about our experience of OCD

• Our experience at Autumn Hills Behavioral Health (Victory Bay Residential) - 2026-04-15

  Writing about our experience spending 30 days at Autumn Hills Behavioral Health (Victory Bay Residential)

• Our experience in a mental health residential care facility - 2026-04-14

  Writing about our experience being in a mental health residential program

• Plurality for some others - 2026-04-04

  Writing about our experience of plurality (again, from different perspectives)

• Poems from headmates - 2026-04-03

  Poems written by different headmates

• Plurality for me (Lily) - 2026-04-02

  Writing about our experience of plurality

• Wildsea sparknotes: The narrative mechanics - 2025-07-24

  All the stuff before we can roll dice

• Wildsea sparknotes: The world - 2025-07-24

  The setting, the flavor, all the good stuff

• Wildsea sparknotes: The dice mechanics - 2025-07-24

  All about dice rolling

• Day 2: Reading up on unikernels - 2025-07-14

  More scoping, doing some reading

• Day 1: Scoping out the project - 2025-07-13

  Figuring out the basics

• Exploring MirageOS - 2025-07-13

  Digging around MirageOS internals

• UTCTF Galois. Remember kids, never repeat a nonce! - 2020-03-12

  A writeup for a nonce reptition attack on GCM mode

• BSides Ottawa crypto challenges writeup - 2019-12-02

  Writeups for some more crypto challenges, featuring a very classic symmetric crypto attack, the slide attack

• factorpy, taking a break for now - 2019-07-26

  Otherwise known as 'Lily realizes that attempting to write an interpreter without any knowledge of how to write interpreters means you end up writing yourself into a dead end'

• Cryptopals sets 2,3,4 writeups - 2019-07-18

  Solutions for sets 2, 3, and 4 of https://cryptopals.com/

• factorpy, what is it? - 2019-07-18

  My first toy language, 100% concurrent and 0% usable

• A brief introduction to modern cryptography - 2019-07-13

  A lightning tour of the various primitives and tools in modern cryptography and why they exist

• How does Hakyll work? - 2019-07-11

  A few messy notes on how hakyll works underneath the hood

• Cryptopals Set 1 writeup - 2019-07-11

  Solutions for set 1 of https://cryptopals.com/

• Google CTF 2019 Crypto challenges writeup - 2019-07-05

  Writeups for the three crypto challenges in google-ctf-2019

CTF related:

• UTCTF Galois. Remember kids, never repeat a nonce! - 2020-03-12

  A writeup for a nonce reptition attack on GCM mode

• BSides Ottawa crypto challenges writeup - 2019-12-02

  Writeups for some more crypto challenges, featuring a very classic symmetric crypto attack, the slide attack

• Google CTF 2019 Crypto challenges writeup - 2019-07-05

  Writeups for the three crypto challenges in google-ctf-2019